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Closeted: My Life as a Gay BYU Student

Jonathan Alder

My plan was simple. Serve a full-time mission. Graduate from BYU. Get married. Stick it out till death. That’s not what happened. I began school at BYU, hoping to strengthen my faith while I searched for love. That's when I met both Claire and Easton. Claire was the girlfriend who offered a chance at eternal marriage but at the cost of my faith. Easton was the boy who promised a fresh perspective on life but at the risk to my schooling. I knew who I wanted, and who I was supposed to want. Despite fearing I was gay, a faithful life was my only goal. But Bishop Stoll loomed over me with the power to remove me from BYU, making suicide an ever-more attractive escape. I had embarked on an honest search for answers, but the fallout of my actions threatened to take away much more than my education. Duration - 11h 3m. Author - Jonathan Alder. Narrator - Jonathan Alder. Published Date - Sunday, 22 January 2023. Copyright - © 2022 Jonathan Alder ©.

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My plan was simple. Serve a full-time mission. Graduate from BYU. Get married. Stick it out till death. That’s not what happened. I began school at BYU, hoping to strengthen my faith while I searched for love. That's when I met both Claire and Easton. Claire was the girlfriend who offered a chance at eternal marriage but at the cost of my faith. Easton was the boy who promised a fresh perspective on life but at the risk to my schooling. I knew who I wanted, and who I was supposed to want. Despite fearing I was gay, a faithful life was my only goal. But Bishop Stoll loomed over me with the power to remove me from BYU, making suicide an ever-more attractive escape. I had embarked on an honest search for answers, but the fallout of my actions threatened to take away much more than my education. Duration - 11h 3m. Author - Jonathan Alder. Narrator - Jonathan Alder. Published Date - Sunday, 22 January 2023. Copyright - © 2022 Jonathan Alder ©.

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